conquering my life

im feeling very confident these days i feel beautiful and sure about what i think and say... makes me happy u know... it wasn't like this before it was different(and by different i mean very insecure as a person very very! insecure) and nerve wracking that i always cared about what people think about me. Im starting to look for a new look that shows my personality and my way of being and that i feel comfortable with it. I love the fact that im accepting me and finding more about me because some time between this week and last month i wasn't sure of who i was or anything. So yes!! its happening for me ...im trying to confront my anger and controll it since a year and a half and its been hard but i feel different ...it pleases me that i have achieve this alone by myself ... i guess that its been really hard for me because i just cant stop getting angry and hurting the people ho are the closest to me i just did int see me not getting angry because of something stupid... but i have started to concer this point!! ive know when its not worth it and with rage in my soul i have leave the situation behind... sometimes its really hard and almost imposible but the fact is that anything its possible. is it going to be hard? HELL YEA!! but im feeling confident and good about me as a person such as physically and internally as well soo i know i can make it happened for me and my family and the love of my life whom i feel very grateful for understanding me and supporting all of my ridicules drama....Its not like i want all of this crap to happened its just that its hard to control my anger. I kind of call it auto anger management class lol.
Ive also started exercising like nine months from know im getting toned and from size 9 ive gotten to a size 3 and im looking foward for a size 0 so yes I feel very good! and if i look too skinny ill gane some weight again! :D!!!! im so darn happy that even dough not everything around me its well... as a person with goals im making them happend. I know that all of this i could not achieve with out the help of God...I love u man!!!!! you are the best!!